I so want to go back west, that I am more happy about profits in the demo terminal, than profit on a real FORTS account..
And I'm more upset with demo losses, than the loss of real money in a normal account…
Money itself has never influenced me in any way..
Only that influenced, how self-actualized I am… and meet my expectations and requirements..
The maximum pain was not from the knowledge of losing money, but from the realization that, that I betrayed my rules. From the feeling of weakness..
All the bursts of unbridled euphoria were not from that, that I made money.. I didn’t even know where I’ll spend it and whether I’ll spend it at all. The euphoria was from the feeling of victory.. above oneself, the market and everything else.
Its value has always been only in awareness, that you can do your job well..
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